Vermont 100 I’ve had the desire to run the Vermont 100 a second time ever since completing it in 2003 as part of the Grand Slam. The whirlwind summer of four consecutive races left me with few memories of the race and with an empty feeling because of it. I sent my application in early this year to be sure I would be entered before the 300-runner limit was reached. Initially running Vermont was supposed to be a fun adventure and time to enjoy the scenery but as the race neared my goals changed. I’ve never been the best at anything I’ve done but I’ve always given my all. Winning or coming on top has never been important to me as long as I try my best. I wondered as the days came near for the start of the Vermont 100 if indeed I’ve ever given my all in this type of race. The answer was simply yes but only in what I consider to be easier 100-mile races such as the Rocky Raccoon 100 in Houston, Texas. In the past I’ve been intimidated by the events held in mountainous areas and therefore have held back to be sure I would finish. Not that the Vermont 100 is held in what I would consider a rough mountainous area but it sure is a step up from Rocky. This would be my chance to prove to myself that I have the ability, stamina, and courage to run my best in a tame mountain range. Now that the goals were in place I needed to prepare myself for the challenge that lay ahead. My running had been consistently erratic for a few months due to lingering injuries but I had no doubt I would be conditioned to run race day. The level of stress in the days leading up to the race was still very high though because of fear I might physically breakdown before the race even started. My mileage was up, my emotions were down, and rest was impossible. I was training on a fine line between success and disaster. It was getting to the point where I wasn’t sure if this was all worth the effort. Motivation for this type of event usually comes pretty easy for me. I constantly have thoughts of my grandfather, nieces and nephews that push me to my limits. This time; however, there would be someone else on my mind as well. Someone that eliminated me from her life, someone that I will always care for very much. Unable to express my feelings towards that person and unable to release my emotions in any way other than tears I was going to let it all loose on the course. I joined some friends in the drive up to West Windsor, Vermont from Delaware on Friday the day prior to the race. Two of the friends would be running the race and the third would be pacing another guy who was coming up in a separate vehicle later in the day. It was a seven hour drive in which most of the time was spent talking about other events we’ve each participated in. It was a good distraction away from my normal pre-race worries of whether I would attain my goals. When we arrived around 10 a.m. check-in had already started so I made my way towards one of the big tents where I would receive my bib number and go through the medical checks. The staging area for both the foot race and the horse race was held in a gigantic open field. It was an adequate setting for such an event but not even close to the beauty of Smoke Rise Farm where the events took place in 2003. My weight was 142 lbs., which I believed to be about four pounds heavy but the thought of disputing it never came to mind. I was sure the scale would be accurate when I weighed myself next at mile 43 during the race and that’s all that mattered. When the three of us finished checking in with race personnel we had some time to kill before the 3:45 p.m. race briefing so we left the site to eat lunch and check in at our hotel. It was a sunny, warm, humid day and one that I hoped would not be duplicated the following day. It seemed no one could agree upon what the actual forecast was for race day. Some said low 80’s low humidity, and cloudy while others just said very hot and very humid. I tried not to pay too much attention to the prognosticators because I knew I was running through whatever weather God decided to throw at us that day. After killing off some time we made our way back to race headquarters allowing plenty of time to arrive before the pre-race meeting and to get our drop bags together. I packed my drop bags the previous day so I wouldn’t be scrambling at the last minute to get things together. As usual for me I put drops at each place where they were allowed. It’s always overkill but it gives me a level of security that I need. The briefing was held outside the tent in the sun, which for the first time made me aware of how hot it actually was. I had sweat pouring off me while just sitting there doing nothing. Several times during the briefing we were informed that the weather would not be conducive to running and that we should take all precautions to maintain our health. When the briefing was over we stayed for dinner, socialized a bit and then headed back to our hotel around 7 p.m. When we got back to the hotel one of the guys realized he had placed both pairs of his running shoes in his drop bags and had to go back to retrieve a pair. I went back to race headquarters with him so that he didn’t have to make the 30-minute drive alone. When we arrived back we found that the bags had already been delivered to the drop bag sites so we asked for assistance in finding them. One of the volunteers offered to drive us to the drop bag location where we thought he left his shoes and we accepted his invitation. What happened next is a story in it’s own right but to make a long story short I had the ride of my life in the bed of his pick-up truck going at least 50 mph down narrow dirt roads. I took a deep breath when we finally got back and looked in the sky and thanked God for allowing me to live. Shoes in hand we went back to the hotel to finally get some shuteye. We were awake the next day and out the door by 3 a.m. This allowed us plenty of time to get there, get prepared, and eat. As I was standing under the tent next to the table where the food was set up I accidentally stepped on or kicked a ladies bag. The next thing I knew I was being slapped on the shoulder and told to act like a human. Wow! I couldn’t believe this lady thought I purposely stepped on her bag. I stopped and thought for a second before reacting and realized that this was probably her first ultra and the tension was overwhelming her causing her to be a little on edge. I told her it was an accident and apologized and then walked a short distance away. Anyhow the time was ticking away and it was getting closer to 4 a.m. and the start of the race so I made my way towards the start line. I stood in a group about the second or third tier back from the front allowing those faster than me the room to get away quick. There was a countdown and then we were off on our 100-mile journey through the farmlands of Vermont. The course led us down a flat dirt road for a couple of miles before turning off to the right onto one of the first trail sections of the day. It was unexpectedly muddy in this section and I was surprised when I had my shoe sucked off my foot less than 30 minutes into my run. I had taken off pretty quick and was afraid I’d get trampled by those behind me when I reached down to unbury my shoe from the mud but I moved quickly and was able to get it back on without hindering those behind me. I had a passing thought that the wet, muddy sock on my foot could cause some blister problems but it was early in the race and I figured it would dry out quickly before any damage could be done. I continued along the rolling course running in the dark for the first hour and a half or so. Despite the muddy trail section the footing was excellent so everyone could run as fast as they wanted without tripping or falling. Since I had few memories of the course from the last time I ran it I had no milestone markers early on. The lead pack disappeared from my view on the trail and I was now with the second tier of runners. This was actually a good thing for me because it brought me back to reality and helped me pull back a little realizing I did not have the ability to stay with the guys in the lead. Just as the sun rose I saw two people on the trail with dogs far off in the distance. I approached them tentatively at first until I saw they had two of my favorite kinds of dogs with them, a St. Bernard and a Black Lab. I went from being fearful to having a very good feeling inside because I know they’re two of the nicest breeds on Earth. I slowed briefly to talk to the dogs but then continued moving on and soon found myself running alongside Jim Rayburn from Red Lion, Pa. not too far from my home in Delaware. We kept each other company talking about everything under the sun but mainly about his Leadville run and East Coast temperamental people. The conversation flowed and before I knew it we were at the 12.5-mile mark crossing over the first covered bridge of the day. The area was just so beautiful as we crossed the bridge and made a left going up what I would consider the first major climb. The scenery with the river on our left and mountains all around combined with the quiet country atmosphere actually made the climb relaxing. It was a long but fairly simple climb up an asphalt road with houses scattered about on either side. Finally at the top we began a long descent. As I did so I felt something sharp grabbing the bottom of my right foot. I thought that it couldn’t be anything serious I must have just gotten a stone in my shoe so I kept running until I reached the bottom. When I got down there I took some time to pull my sock off and turn it inside out but no stone. There was no significant pain in my foot but something was definitely annoying me. The feeling stayed with me when I started back up and continued for several more miles but eventually went away. I guess I must have aggravated a ligament or muscle causing it to spasm for a little while. Anyhow we were on our way to the first crew checkpoint at mile 18 where the first true report of my progress would come. I can’t remember a lot from my 2003 run but I do remember that I made it to this point in around 3:10. As we passed through Jim told me our time into the aid station was 2:47. Even though it was early on it was uplifting to know I made it here 23 minutes quicker than the last time. Actually I figured I would need that extra time since the course changes made in 2004 were supposed to make things a little more difficult in the latter stages. When I approached the crew area the crowd cheered and off to the right I saw friends of mine Rick Palmer, Mike Mason, and his wife. They were enthusiastically cheering me on and Rick ran to the aid station with me to make sure I was okay. Rick made me aware that I was sweating heavily and reminded me how important it was for me to take the Succeed caps to replace the lost sodium. I was so focused and concentrating on moving quickly that I did not think about taking the Succeed caps I had stashed in my pack. I was drinking water constantly but it was coming right back out of me in the form of sweat. After he told me how much I was sweating I started to take 2 caps per hour for the rest of the day which still may not have been enough. I finished my business at the aid station and then made my way out. The amount of support I had received here had me very fired up and maybe feeling a little too confident too early. I got a burst of energy and used it entirely for the next 3 or 4 miles most of, which were run on dirt country roads with once again rolling, hills. The rolling hills and dirt country roads would pretty much be the theme for the day. The hills rarely disappeared for more than 10 or 15 minutes at a time depending on how fast you were running. In my opinion these were hills and not mountains. Some of the climbs were long but not everlasting like some you would see out west or even at MMT. The road sections were not jeep trails or fire roads they were actually active roads that were usually very smooth with little or no rocks. I was able to run as fast as I wanted without concentrating a whole lot on where I was stepping. I ran into my first trouble of the day somewhere around mile 25. I was climbing to the top of a hill in one of the few areas completely exposed to the sun and it just sucked the life out of me. I struggled to maintain some kind of walking pace as several people passed by me including Sarah Almodovar the lead lady at the time. I was struggling to walk fast and she was running up with a big smile on her face like it was nothing. As she went by I asked her how she could do that. I already knew the answer was because she’s a woman and she’s a hell of lot tougher than I am. Her answer to me was that she was trying to recover from the long downhill she just ran. Yeah that made sense to me. Bust your butt going downhill as fast as you can and then recover by busting your butt running up. I guess I’ll just never understand how females find the inner strength to do those types of things. A couple of more people passed me after my quick conversation with Sarah and I knew I had to quickly come up with a resolution to my problem. The first thing I knew I needed to start doing was hitting every aid station and refilling my water bottles. Up to this point I had been blowing off all the unmanned aid stations and getting away with it. Now I was struggling up to the top of a hill with little or no water left kicking myself for not refueling a couple of miles back. Secondly I had to start dousing myself with water to keep cool. I honestly did not feel the heat unless I was out in an open area but knew it was affecting me because of how fast I became so sluggish and the amount of sweat pouring off of me. The third and final thing I needed to do was make it to mile 28 as quick as possible to down a Red Bull, Ensure, and take a bottle of Rocket Shot energy fluid. I was very confident that if I followed my plan I would regain my strength and be moving at a decent pace again. When I got into mile 28 Rick and Mike again were there to greet me but this time I could tell there was some concern. I lost 8 or 9 places and didn’t exactly look the picture of health. Rick once again followed me to the aid station table and gave me a pep talk. I assured him I was okay and quickly got in and out. Wow it was early but I felt as though I had disappointed a lot of people because I fell back so far. Well there wasn’t a lot I could do about it but continue to try my best. I certainly wasn’t concerned because I knew there was plenty of time and in that time a lot can happen. Up to this point I was alone for most of the morning but things would change beginning now. I left with a young guy named Adam Lint who’s lives around the Philadelphia area. If nothing else I got lucky having the opportunity to run with a couple of guys who live in my area and share common interests. Adam’s a pretty fast runner having displayed his ability with a third place finish at the Laurel Highlands 70-mile race in 2004. I could tell he was holding back on this day because this was his first hundred-mile race and didn’t know what to expect. I offered him a little advice but he didn’t seem to really need it. He didn’t reject it but it was obvious he was a confident young guy. We would bounce back and forth with each other the rest of the day eventually being joined by Krissy Sybrowsky for the final 40 miles or so. Other than being passed by the first horse miles 28 to 43 were uneventful as I traversed the same kind of terrain as I had the first 27 miles. My ability to stay focused on the task at hand and the scenery counteracted any effects of the heat and humidity. Honestly I felt surrounded by trees for the most part which protected me from the sun and I even felt an occasional breeze. The humidity is something I’m used to having lived in Delaware my entire life. I guess it’s an advantage I have just as those who live in Colorado have the advantage of being acclimated to the altitude. I won’t say that the weather had no effect on me at all because my body was reacting I just didn’t feel it. I realized this the first time at mile 18 when Rick told me how much I was sweating. It was reinforced when I reached the Camp 10 Bear aid station at mile 43 and weighed in 6 pounds under my initial weight of 142. I struggled to make the quick calculation… 7% of 142…..what was it?….I just couldn’t think straight. The volunteer who weighed me told the doctor on site that I had lost 7 pounds I quickly responded no I only lost 6. The doc then looked into my eyes to make sure I was okay and told me I need to drink more fluids to get my weight up or she may have to pull me the next time around. I really did feel okay and I was drinking as much water as possible. I was just sweating more than I was drinking. I had the urge to urinate a few times but was afraid to for fear it would lead to more weight loss. Actually I never did do the whole bathroom thing until after the last weight check at mile 89. Well I left Camp 10 Bear a little worried about my weight but knew I had 25 miles or 5 hours or so to resolve that problem before the next weight check. I wasn’t sure how I was going to do it because I had been drinking as much as I could and taking the Succeed caps to replace the lost salt and potassium. I figured my best bet was to start pushing food inside my body whether I wanted it or not. Normally I just pick at the food grabbing a sandwich now and then but from this point on I was taking a few extra seconds to take in more food. My strategy of blasting through the aid stations as quick as possible was still in tact but definite modifications had to be made or my day could end real quick. Adam had pulled ahead of me somewhere between miles 43-49 so I lost him for awhile and actually figured we wouldn't meet up again until the finish. I did; however, catch up with Randy Hunter from Canada. His crew person and girlfriend remembered me from our time spent lost together on the Javelina course in 2004. We had a pretty good chuckle over that wondering how in the world we got lost on a loop course in the open desert. It wasn’t long before Randy pulled back a little and let me move forward. As I entered the aid station at mile 49 I noticed a clock that read 12:25 p.m. Okay I just did 49 miles in 8:25 so I should be able to do a 10-minute mile to get to 50 probably in 8:35. Not too impressive but I was okay with it. I looked to my right while in the aid station and saw a few early casualties. I made it a point to check on one guy in particular because we ran together briefly early on. I wanted to check on him before leaving to make sure he was okay. He actually sounded very good and told me he was just tired. His response prompted me to tell him that he wasn’t done. He needed to take a few more minutes to rest and then get his ass up out of that chair and get back ahead of me. I guess my stern words of encouragement didn’t work because I found out later that he pulled himself from the race at that point. Miles 49 to 52 were mainly out of civilization so when I reached the aid station at mile 52 and saw people again it brightened my spirits. There is not a lot of time spent out in the woods in this run like some of the rougher mountain races so I didn’t mentally prepare a lot for that situation. When it did happen I coped but couldn’t wait to see signs of life again. As I left the aid station at mile 52 I saw Sarah Almodovar in the distance. She was at a dead stop and looked to be reaching down to massage her lower leg. As I approached her I asked her if she was okay. She indicated there was some severe pain in her lower left leg and she feared it might be broke. I stopped to make sure that she was okay and see if there was anything that I could do to help. I advised her to consider dropping from the race especially if she thought it might be a stress fracture. She said she would be okay and she didn’t seem to be distressed in anyway plus the aid station was less that 300 yards behind so I felt okay continuing my run. I did find out later that she did the smart thing and dropped from the race at the next aid station. I was alone for a very short time before once again joining Adam Lint and then Krissy Sybrowsky. I talked to Krissy a little about her Slam attempt and was surprised to hear of her concern over Leadville. I assured her that a runner with her ability would have no problem with what Leadville had to offer. I doubt I aleved her of her concern but I felt obligated to help her out since I’ve been there before. The three of us never really ran together for long periods of time we just jockeyed positions back and forth with the occasional chitchat. We continued like this running the same type of dirt roads with the occasional short trail section all the way through mile 63. When we reached mile 63 one of the aid station volunteers warned us that we should refuel and carry as much water as possible because the next stretch would be 5 ½ miles through a tough trail. This message sent a little fear through me. I was on a good pace but a tough 5-mile section could really put a damper on things. I listened but tried not to give it too much thought because everyone on the course had to do the same section this just happened to be my turn. We started out running on a nice flat road or I guess you could consider it a trail. It eventually turned into a very nice long downhill on what I consider very runnable terrain. I have to take into consideration that it was still daylight so I could see where I was running. It’s very possible that the runners later in the day may have struggled a little here in the dark. Even though I enjoyed the easy downhill I couldn’t keep up with Krissy and Adam and they eventually pulled away from me enough to where I couldn’t see them. Now that they were gone I had no one to lead me so I had to stay aware of the course markings on my own to make sure I stayed on the right track. I normally do this anyway but occasionally when I’m with another person I take it for granted that he or she is following the right route. Anyhow at the bottom of the hill the course turned off to the left back towards Camp 10 Bear. I made the turn but in the distance could not see Adam or Krissy. I couldn’t believe they were that far ahead of me. I continued to run but worrying at the same time that I got off course. Camp 10 Bear is also mile 43 so there was the possibility I backtracked some how and was following the wrong markings. I never thought of turning around because something inside me just kept pushing me forward. Finally in the distance I saw Rick Palmer standing at the bottom of the hill urging me on. He seen me running down the hill and made the comment “now that’s what I’m talking about”. He knew I was struggling the last time he saw me at mile 28 and saw a significant difference now. It was a big lift to hear he was confident in me again. Down at the very bottom of the hill I passed Mike Mason giving him a high five and then headed towards the scale to be weighed. As I was weighing in Rick yelled over to me to ask if I wanted Mike to pace me. I yelled back are you kidding! Turns out Mike’s runner Todd Walker disqualified himself after realizing he made a wrong turn on the course. Todd was vying for the lead with another runner when the mistake was made. Not sure if it was his mistake or the other guy’s Todd continued on for many more miles before coming to the conclusion he was at fault. Todd’s obviously a class act and a very respectable guy for making such a tough decision. I felt bad for him but at the same time couldn’t help but capitalize on the situation. I was thoroughly excited to have a great runner like Mike pace me the final 50K. I was excited to be able to pick up Mike as my pacer but I still had to jump on the scale to be weighed and feared my day could be complicated with any more lost weight. It was okay though as this time around I picked up two pounds and didn’t wait around for a second opinion. I got my stuff and took off while Mike prepared to pace. Rick told me to take off and that Mike would catch up to me. Even if I were fresh Mike’s quicker than I am so I wasn’t worried at all that I would lose him. I went down the trail about three quarters of a mile before I saw Mike making his way towards me. I told him it was now his job to get me in and he seemed pretty excited to do so. It was about 3:30 p.m. and we had 31 miles to go. Having all that daylight left to run made me wonder just how quick we could finish up. I didn’t waste too much time thinking about that though because 31 miles is still 31 miles and anything can happen good or bad. Just as Mike caught up to me we reached what I would consider the toughest part of the course. It was straight up hill on rocky, uneven terrain. It reminded me a bit of the Massanutten 100 course. Okay I’m getting a little carried away with that statement but it was the most rugged trail I faced all day. It was what seemed to be a never- ending climb and it sucked every bit of energy out of me. There was so much activity at the last aid station with the weigh in and finding out about Mike that I forgot to access my drop bags to get my extra Rocket Shot energy fluid. When we finally reached the top I was exhausted and feeling sick to my stomach and could have used some kind of lift. As I struggled I saw a friend of mine off in the distance hauling his butt back down the trail towards Mike and I. He was trying to get back to Camp 10 Bear where he was sent in the wrong direction and wound up running an extra 8 or 10 miles. Runners come into that aid station at both mile 43 and mile 68. My friend came in at mile 43 but was sent out in the direction that the mile 68 runners were to go in. He ran all the way to the next aid station at mile 72 before realizing his mistake and backtracking. When we saw him he still had about a mile and a half to backtrack before getting back on course. I found out later that he made the smart choice to DNF rather than fight the heat and the cutoffs the rest of the day not to mention the mental fatigue of knowing he should be 10 miles ahead. Well after our friend left us Mike and I continued on doing a run/walk thing. I didn’t have a lot in me at this point so running was a struggle but I did it when I could. As would be a pattern the rest of the day and night Mike pushed me to run when it was obvious we needed too. Mike forced me to give my best effort on the flats and the downhills but anything that resembled an uphill I was walking. Every once in a while I would get a surge of energy and run partially up a short hill but never all the way. My main concern as we headed in and out of the mile 72-aid station was to control my stomach problems that I was all of the sudden having. I could not look up without feeling dizzy and nauseous. Somehow I was able to regain control after about a 15-minute struggle. I did it by moving forward while looking straight at the ground and refusing to let it overwhelm me. I tried running more which also seemed to relieve the symptoms. Even though I regained control it happened again off and on over the next five or six miles or actually every time we stopped at an aid station. Luckily it never turned into a serious problem and I was able to function without stopping. Krissy Sybrowsky caught up to us again somewhere after mile 72. Krissy and her pacer stayed with us for a short time but then went by without much said. I think at this point we all just wanted to get to the finish as quick as possible and idle conversation only expended energy. We ran alone and would meet up with no one else until mile 90 after Krissy went by. Once again there was really nothing significant that occurred between miles 72-90. It was just the same rolling terrain that I faced the entire day. I did; however, begin to notice there were more flat sections than before. The flats were driving me crazy because I knew I needed to run them in entirety but it was just so hard because it bored me to death. The only thing that kept me going was imagining that I was running at home on my normal route alongside the highway instead of quiet Vermont. Those thoughts put me at ease and allowed me to run or at least do something that resembled running. It was about 8:00 p.m. as we were approaching the turn off to the mile 89 aid station when out of no where a deer jumped out of the woods directly in front of Mike. The deer came out so quickly that Mike didn’t even have time to be stunned. We both kind of looked at one another afterwards knowing what each of us was thinking without saying a word. That had to be one of the most unbelievable things I’ve ever seen. I guess looking back we’re both lucky the deer didn’t come bolting out of no where and run one of us over. Still moving forward and even finding some energy to run after the deer incident we made it into the mile 89-aid station. I realized at this moment that I had lost my flashlight that I had been carrying with me all day. Yeah I carried it all day and then lost it when I needed it. As I was being weighed for the final time I yelled out to the crowd to ask if anyone had a spare light. Mike’s wife was there to greet us too and she quickly responded that she had a light. As she went to get it another runner was coming down the path towards the aid station. Mike’s wife quickly got the headlamp and even put it on for me. My weight checked in okay, I had my bottles refilled, and I had a light so it was time to get my butt out of there before being passed. I was led to believe that the final 10 or 11 miles of the course would be the hardest and that I should save some energy for it. Leaving mile 89 I was feeling pretty good whether from the adrenaline rush of having someone on my tail or whatever reason I had energy. We ran for a long time on an easy flat to downhill trail section. Once again I call this easy but there was still some daylight as I ran so things could have been much harder for those running in the dark. I figured I built a sizable lead on the guy behind me by the time we got off the trail and back onto road because I really believed there was no way he’d be able to run as much as I just did 90 some miles into a run. I was wrong though because here he came down the road as we approached the mile 95-aid station. He was looking fresh and strong and determined to finish quickly and get this thing over with. Me, well I still had energy but certainly wasn’t fresh and for some reason didn’t have the determination that I would have like to have had. I wanted the top 10 finish really bad but with a little less than 5 miles left it wasn’t in the bag yet. I should have had some motivation but I think at this point that I just wanted it over with too. We had a couple more miles of road until we reached the final aid station at mile 98, which Mike urged me to blow by and I complied. He said I had 30 minutes to go 2 miles in order to break 19 hours and that I should be able to do it but I had to move. Like most 100 milers I’ve done Vermont does not end on an easy note. In the last 2 miles there are 3 or 4 nice size hills you have to get up and down before coming to the finish. Also if you arrive at this section in the dark you can see the finish all lit up off in the distance. It actually seems closer than it really is and can be deflating when you realize you have one more nice size hill to get up before finally making the final ¼ mile descent down to the finish. When I reached the top of the final hill Mike screamed at me to run hard because I was close to breaking 19 hours but I still needed to push. I listened and gave what I had crossing the line in 18:56:12 and 9th place overall. I was happy about the placing and the time but must give all the credit to Mike for bringing me in the last 31 miles. I know that if I had been out there alone the demons that normally take over my thought process would have taken over again on this night. He did an excellent job offering encouragement and keeping me motivated in times of difficulty. He knew exactly what to say and how to say it. He literally pushed me to a limit I’ve never reached and helped me achieve a goal I thought was unattainable. The 2005 version of the Vermont 100 Mile Endurance run was a very organized event that included a lot of hardworking volunteers. The amount of aid stations and the variety of foods and beverages are second to none. The attention received from the medical staff and other race personnel was excellent and at the very least comparable to any race I’ve ever participated in. Dave Bursler Bear, Delaware